Heartache.

You know what heartache is. We all have probably experienced this at one time or another. It does not feel good. In fact, it feels just like the word sounds. Heartache. It is with a heavy heart that I update this blog this morning.

Shaelynn has another MRI on Wednesday. They had been in the hospital for several days. On Sunday she was acting funny. They took her to the U, and found that she had fluid on her brain. So she had surgery on Sunday, to put in a Tube to drain the fluid. It is really quite amazing. This tube goes from the top of her head, down her neck, and through her chest and tummy. We could see it on the X-ray they had of her. Wow! So they have been in the hospital since Sunday. The Drs. had not been real pleased with her peripheral vision, so they had an MRI on Wed. The Doctors came in yesterday with the MRI results. They are not what we had hoped for. Shaelynn's cancer has spread. The Doctors had 2 options for them, one, radiation, which is really not an option. Since she is 2 and her brain is not fully developed, the radiation would really do more harm than good. The other option is to take her home, give her an oral chemo treatment to slow the cancer down a bit, and call hospice. Give her a quality of life rather than a quantity of life. Sometime this particular type of cancer can slow down its growth, and if that happens, then they can revisit in a few months. They are going home today.

I had a dentist appt. in Iowa City yesterday, so I was able to spend the afternoon and evening with Drew, Sam, Shaelynn and Killian. It was a fun time. I enjoyed playing with Shaelynn so much! I was also able to hold Killian a lot, which I love, gotta get that little baby fix somewhere!

Heartache comes in many situations, but for those of us who know and love our Savior, heartache also comes with the love and knowledge that our Lord is sovereign. He loves us, but put us here on earth with trials, NOT for this tough journey, but for the ultimate destination. THE DESTINATION! Spending eternity with our Savior! What a relief! Our Lord is here with us! He is loving and merciful. He is here. He is in this place with Drew and Sam. He IS! O Father! Continue to pray Psalm 77 over this family. This has been a comfort to them.
My heart cannot get off of Psalm 121

I will lift my eyes to the mountains;
From where shall my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
Who made heaven and earth.
He will not allow your foot to slip ;
He who keeps you will not slumber.
Behold, He who keeps Israel
Will neither slumber or sleep.

The Lord is your keeper;
The Lord is your shade and your right hand.
The sun will not smite you by day,
Nor the moon by night.
They Lord will protect you from all evil;
He will keep your soul.
The Lord will guard your going out, and your coming in
From this time forth and forever.

My heart is heavy, but I rejoice in this beautiful little girl that has blessed our life in a far greater way than most will ever know. She is the epitome of strength and love. She has Joy in her eyes at all times. Her little voice is like music to my ears. She has such delight over such little things! A banana, "ooo boy!" Kissing her baby brother. Her blankie. Precious girl.